Not myself..

Lately I dont think I have been myself... Like when I'm with my best friends and boyfriend. Im all smiley and happy. But then when I get home I get depressed.. I dont know why either... If I could make one wish right now and I know forsure it will come true.. I'd wish to live with my best friend. Im soo much happier and im my self when I'm with her. 11:11 wishes that I make its that wish, because im not myself at home. Im sad depressed lonely.. I have no one to talk to. I stay in my room and listen to music and text people. Thats it.. I have no life until im with Erica, BranDan, Megin, Rickey, and or Eduardo.. Sure I have a best friend that lives next door but its not the same as it use to be.. Why cant my wish just come true.. Dont get me wrong I love my mom and dad to death but they dont do anything with me... Im the only child living at my house. Cant hang out with friends live to far.away, cant go to the beach live to far away, cant do anything... Is there anyway my wish can just come true? I just dont know what to do anymore... anyone wanna help??!?! Ugh! I hate my life when im at home I'd rather be in school with all the drama instead of my room depressed and sad everyday..
But I just dont know how much longer I can take with this fake smile on my face when im at home...
-Katy Cilley
May.28.2013